we're on pins and needles around here.
the adoption hopefuls who were so generous to reach out to us and offer us information and support last friday have been informed of a possible match. we don't know them, we've never met them, we've only seen their pictures online - yet we feel such a connection in waiting for the news.
people going through the adoption process seem to be the most gentle and open people we've ever met in our lives. such a blessing. even though this is not a placement for "our" baby - we feel their anticipation. we're praying for their baby's birth mother, praying for the baby, praying for their family, praying for their social workers, we're praying that everyone involved has the peace of GOD to make the right decisions for all involved.
i just cannot imagine how we will feel once we file our own papers - knowing that the phone call could come at any time. it could be the middle of the day - it could be the middle of the night - it could be sunny - it could be raining - it could be winter - it could be spring - it could be a week after your homestudy is approved - it could be 12 months later. the anxiety of all of that uncertainty is exciting and unnerving all in the same regard. the anticipation i feel for our hopeful friends is making my heart want to explode, so i cannot even fathom how we'll feel when we receive a similar call.
thank you GOD for all of these feelings - FINALLY - feelings of excitement, eagerness, strength, and hope for a baby to come.