i think i'm at the stage now where this is becoming all consuming. i think i tend to have a bit of an obsessive personality at times. you see, everything i do, i want to do it perfectly, make sure i am making the right decisions, and fully investigate every option. with adoption this is very hard to do. there is just so much information out there, it's really hard to know where to begin, what path to take, and what to believe.
just when i thought i was falling in love with bethany christian services i found some websites that led me to feel a little differently about their program. luckily i have a facebook friend who is going through the process and she has agreed to chat with me on the phone next week.
i feel really good about everything i know about wacap so far, and have also found a facebook friend who has time to chat with me about her experience in august (after our trip to john's hopkins).
i really hope that connecting with these parents (both current and in process) will help us get a better feel for what path is going to be right for us. it's hard to digest the fact that once you've committed to an agency by giving them your deposit, submitting your application, and preparing for your home study that you are then locked in - for better or for worse.
hopefully we can relax this weekend with a little r&r at the beach and just really chat about everything that is weighing on our minds, because right now i am not sure i will be able to sleep again until we've picked an agency.
here are some cute things that keep me going these days:
these sweet babies are on our front porch. its hot out there, hot as can be, but their mom is keeping them well cared for, despite the sweltering heat.
we got this baby bank at a print shop in roanoke when we were in town for new years eve. i know its totally supposed to be a joke, but for me it's totally serious. this little baby on my desk keeps me focused on work when all i want to do is stop and day dream about babies.