on the night of may 23rd we were contacted by a sweet lil momma in louisiana. one of her contacts had found a pass around card that my sister placed in a new orleans hotel and shared our information with her. she'd been following our facebook page for a week and finally decided to reach out. we hit it off and ended up chatting with each other for about 5 hours. things sounded good and we found hope again.
the morning of the 24th of may started out as any normal day and i got a couple calls on my cell phone that were from unidentified numbers. i did not think too much of it until one left a voicemail message. the message asked us to call our social worker from bethany. still, i did not get too excited since we've previously been called three times (during the wait) to see if we'd be speakers on adoptive parent panels etc. i called her back. she said "we have a placement" - "twin boys were born" and we'd been selected to parent. i immediately said yes. (i have no clue what i was thinking, but i said yes.) i imed will on his trillian account and hoped he was in agreement with my thought process. his primary answer was yes as well, but he did have doubts and concerns about paying double placement fees! we chatted through it and decided it was a go. they asked us to come to the city where the babies were born on the 27th.
|my big boy graduating from woodland preschool.|
friday the 26th we shopped. we gathered two of everything. we got car seats, bottles, formula, passies, onesies, blankets, everything we could think of and we (along with my parents who were here for graduation who now got roped into going out of town with us to watch dax while we adopted the twins) loaded up the cars. we headed out on saturday the 27th, three hours from home and got everyone checked into their hotel. dax was eager to bounce on a bouncy house across the street and to go swimming in the indoor pool. we dropped off our bags and headed to the hospital. the mother had signed her revocation papers earlier in the morning.
|so excited for those paw patrol bouncy houses!|
|feeling great after our visit with the sweet momma.|
|good times with our big boy.|
|working on swimming.|
|nani and her new swim bag on the hotel patio.|
|my sweet family|
|the day before the big meeting.|
these weren't our babies.
we were not their parents.
they'd go home with their birth family.
we were happy for them, but we were wrecked. we'd told dax. why did we tell dax? he was so excited. how were we going to tell him and break his little heart? i cried for hours. will cried for hours. we just laid in the bed until we couldn't anymore and we decided to go watch dax in the pool with grans. there we watched dax tell a boy in the pool that he was going to have TWO new brothers. my heart broke a little more. soon we'd have to share with him what we knew.
|he was so happy. he didn't know what we knew.|
|starting out our trip to western, nc in the right way by getting good eats in durham, nc.|
|dropping cards all across the state. back to the drawing board. literally.|