since husband had his surgery in april, he really was not given the green light to resume all normal activities until the visit to hopkins. with the good news last weekend, we knew he was okay to handle heavy lifting and we could go ahead and get things going. i didn't think we could move the entire office in one weekend, but he amazed me and we got it done. we still have to hang the pictures on the walls of the new office and put some cord ties on the dangling mess of cord tangle that hangs behind the desks, but we're 97% there.
the move leaves us with a blank canvas down stairs. this afternoon after church we decided on a paint color for the walls. we opted for a very pale grey (dolphin) to compliment the bedding and serve as a backdrop for the very colorful artwork and accessories that will soon fill the space. as i prepped to put the first coat of paint on the walls i just laid in the floor of the empty room and began to cry. not tears of sadness, but tears of joy. i feel so thankful - so grateful that GOD is giving us this experience. an experience to grow together, to walk a journey together, to build a family together, all with him in the center of it. i have to think that if we were blessed with a full term baby the first time we became pregnant in 2004 that we would probably not be so connected, so joined, so patient, so thankful, so aware, so grateful for everything we are experiencing now.
(never fear - i'm calling the carpet cleaner tomorrow about this carpet. it honestly never looked so dingy with a full room of furniture.)
(the rest of the blank slate - these photos are prior to paint etc.)
husband told me over dinner tonight that he was so thankful that the path our life is on is so wonderfully positive. he and i both feel that we are fulfilling our destiny to find the baby that GOD has planned for us to parent. every day i feel this more and more.
the pastor's sermon at church today was a lesson on your faith in GOD. there are just some sermons that i feel are speaking directly to our souls - and this was one of them. we turned our search for a family over to GOD when we began this process last december, but it's only through this year's trials and searching that we've come to see how our faith in GOD's ability to build our family is the essence of the journey.
the pastor left us with this: "Faith is the bird that feels the light and sings when the dawn is still dark." -- Rabindranath Tagore
i've always had a fascination with birds and as we're faithful in GOD's path for our adoption, this quote has really touched me.
after church aubrey gifted us an amazing book about adoption. (Sucessful Adoption - A Guide For Christian Families by Nataline Nichols Gillespie) we were so touched that she thought of us on this journey and purchased such a wonderfully helpful tool for us.
i read aloud the forward and the first ten pages as will drove us home. i then continued to read during painting breaks, but felt i should stop since i was really "skipping ahead". i'll wait to read more tonight until will and i can do it together. it's just so amazing how as we continue to prepare the physical things for our baby's arrival, our spiritual path and our hearts continue to be prepared.