really? yes, this is for real.

the phone was ringing off the hook today.  by noon there were about 5 missed calls on the home line.  when i am working i rarely even look at the caller id and just let it go to the answering machine and figure we can call them back when work is done.

around 12:20pm my cell phone rang.  this is odd (if you know me) because my cell phone is never turned on and if it is i have no idea where its located.  i was upstairs working and the phone was downstairs.  thinking something must be wrong, i darted down the stairs to try and answer the phone before it stopped ringing.  i did not make it, and by the time i dug through my purse to attempt to find the phone the house phone was ringing again.  i headed for the kitchen, where i heard the ring coming from the counter.  i ran for the other side of the kitchen and lunged for the phone. 

checking the caller id, i saw that it said - BETHANY CHRISTIAN SERVICES.  knowing that we told the agency we did not want to be called for anything other than the confirmation of a possible match, i started to get a bit nervous when i answered the phone.  our social worker indulged me in some small talk and asked me how my tuesday was going.  i started to think that she had some ulterior motive for calling and maybe she was actually not calling with good news, but i could tell she had excitement in her voice.

she went on to tell me that an expectant mother had viewed our book and felt that we were a good match for her baby.  WHOA!  WHAT!  we've only been on the list for a little over a month - how could this really be happening NOW?  she went on to explain more about the expectant mother and her situation.  i quickly scribbled down what she was saying and attempted to instant message will to let him know that BCS was on the phone.  poor will was patiently waiting through my twenty minute phone call, and dying to know what was going on.  all i could instant message him was that BCS was on the phone and that it was good news.  then i gave him the "BRB" message and went back to my scribbling.

the expectant mom - is expecting a baby girl that is due the first week of september.  we have a meeting with her and the social worker on thursday morning, and we're praying that she feels comfortable with us and that if this is the baby that is meant for us to parent that we will find a peace at the meeting.  we're praying for her, her situation, and that regardless of what she decides that she is comfortable in knowing she made the right decision.  please keep her in your prayers as we work through these next few weeks and the situation that unfolds. 

we're over the moon excited and feel like this situation is the "right" one for us.  we've heard others talk of having an inclination when a match was going to fall through, that something was just not right from the start.  we don't want to get too eager or excited, but everything seems like it was meant to be thus far. 

just as an aside - we're about to celebrate our 10th wedding anniversary on the 18th of this month.  for such a monumental occasion we'd had huge plans (since the day we were wed) to go to hawaii and renew our vows on the beach.  as the time got closer to this big anniversary, the plans for this big hoorah seemed to fade into the distance.  once the adoption was in full swing, we decided we should do something less expensive, but still meaningful.  we'd decided on a 5 day driving trip (over labor day) to a b&b and restaurant that we'd always wanted to try, then heading north to the town where we first met and eating at the restaurant where we celebrated our first valentine's day, and then stopping over at one last b&b on the way back home.  once we added up the trip we decided that we could not afford to do the trip and buy a new camera, but we had already asked off for the time IN THE FIRST WEEK OF SEPTEMBER.  luckily we did buy the camera, and we did not retract our vacation requests for this time off.  so - maybe, just maybe it was all meant to be.

we'll keep you posted as we find out more within the next 48, but so far everything feels like this is "the one".  we can hardly believe that our sweet darling deer could actually be on her way to us!