tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1536183239879701045.post1525295254581062611..comments2023-09-16T10:56:56.490-04:00Comments on finding a family: hard as stonewill + adrihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11504788974852966314noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1536183239879701045.post-1365102141087342492014-05-17T22:18:54.259-04:002014-05-17T22:18:54.259-04:00My Sweet Sweet Sister. You suffered a loss, a rea...My Sweet Sweet Sister. You suffered a loss, a real tangible loss. When we heard of the baby girl we all took her into our hearts, I can only imagine how much more you did. A thousand thoughts go through your head, a lifetime of imagined memories and then poof, stolen. You walled yourself off to survive the hurt, the absolute devastation that flooded you. Knowing logically that little girl was never "ours" does not explain the emotions of the heart. You were open and ready to love another with out question. The door closed with out being able to say goodbye. Maybe you need to write it all down and then burn it. something anythingto keep from being this: ? a poem<br />© Beth Ryder, All rights reserved <br /><br />patiently i wait<br />for sleep to encounter<br />those hollows i cant fill<br />in the recesses of my sanity<br /><br />the cold dark places<br />i keep hidden away<br />sheltered from<br />lights abrasions<br /><br />long repressed feelings<br />house themselves there<br />in the deep dank oblivion<br />created to obscure<br /><br />fighting the rise <br />to my consciousness<br />i listen to music<br />to drown the voices<br /><br />closing my eyes<br />i see<br />specters dancing <br />jeering at my thoughts<br /><br />i curl up<br />tight in a ball<br />protecting my heart<br />from the hurt <br /><br />breathing deeply<br />i push it all back<br />to the cave inside my soul<br />where it resides. <br />bethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00593237142408153200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1536183239879701045.post-84698601271020149332014-05-04T22:14:04.955-04:002014-05-04T22:14:04.955-04:00Hello,
I am a psychologist and a blogger (http://d...Hello,<br />I am a psychologist and a blogger (http://docgrumbles.wordpress.com). I am currently conducting a survey of bloggers who post about pregnancy, fertility, adoption, pregnancy loss, and parenting. I would like to extend an invitation for you to complete the brief survey found here:<br />https://www.surveymonkey.com/s/MLVBHDG<br />(I am very sorry to leave this in a comment like a spammer, especially after such a sad post!)<br />Thank you so much for your consideration,<br />Dr. Grumbles<br />Dr. Grumbleshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09448780702110352118noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1536183239879701045.post-24795466964006990102014-04-02T17:23:12.807-04:002014-04-02T17:23:12.807-04:00I'm sorry you had to experience so much pain. ...I'm sorry you had to experience so much pain. Our failed match was not nearly as emotional at the end because we intentionally kept our hearts guarded. I'll be praying for you and can't wait to hear about your journey to baby #2!Ashleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10826913919163707391noreply@blogger.com